Journey to a safe Heaven : Remember me

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“A year from now you will wish you had started today”.

Love is inevitable. Time changes, life will change but the love for  your dear ones remain the same.This was a letter written by a wife to her ex- husband when she was fighting for her life in a hospital.

Dear Mathew,

Hope you are fine and doing good in life.

It has been a long time since we took the decision of mutually separating. But even today I think about you and want you back.  In these years, I have come across many people but none could match you . Still the thought of you gives butterflies in my stomach . After so many years , I wait for your call or may be a text – but it seems you have moved on . Now when I look back , I find it so silly for us to take such a decision when matters could have been handled maturely. Things could have been sorted. I know life does not stop for anyone but you know our love was strong enough to fight against time. Today I realize these were those vague assumptions which every girl like me thinks of when she is in love with the man of her life. 

In the last few months of my life , I just want to say that I still love you and that no one could ever take your place in my life.

God bless you.

Best wishes with love , 

Emma

Change can come in many forms in our lives. It might come forcefully like a tidal wave, or creep along incrementally like a glacier. It might come in the form of devastating tragedy, difficult choices, broken relationships, or even new opportunities.

Many times, the only way to improve our lives is to force ourselves to undergo difficult change. That might mean breaking up and leaving a stale – but comfortable – relationship, leaving a mediocre – but stable – job, moving away from a nice – but uninspiring – location, or anything else that is holding us back from accomplishing our dreams.

But yes, dealing with uninvited change in our lives is often difficult and painful. Some day, after we have mastered the winds and the waves, the tides and gravity, we will harness the energies of love. All our years we have been strong fighting all the obstacles. But when we know that our life is coming to an end , that is when we want the most loved person to be with us so that we can peacefully take our last breathe.

29th June, ’15.

Yet Another Chapter

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You be in a relationship for quite a few years and then get married to the man of your life.

Everything seems fine till then. But what happens after that?

A reality check !

A year of marriage and they get separated. She does not hear his voice any more nor could smell him in the entire house. His name no more appears on her phone when she is out . No one is there to ask her when she would come back from office. She is unaware of how he manages himself getting up early morning and run for work!

She began to think whether everything was just a dream. And even it was ,  it broke like a piece of glass in a moment.She finds herself standing in the middle of the road where life around her , every object moved at its own pace but she remained standstill. Her life came to a stop . She felt he was near her but that was her misconception. Probably it was the connection of their soul that made her feel such . It worried her how she could cope up without him. What other option did he leave for her ?!

She thought of going back to him inspite of what he had done to her. But her mind did not allow.

She thought how would she pacify her stubborn soul that did not learn to live without him!

As time passes , you change and become a different person when people finds difficult to understand the new you. But that is when you start feeling that you are slowly coming out of that small world of unhappiness.

It was the same for her . With time she was changing into a different person and her heart stopped hoping his return. Gradually she was learning to live without him.

But somewhere deep inside you ,it still pricks you. You still think if one day things become okay and reminisce the old happy times with him. Its like a cool breeze blowing across your face after a tiring work that makes you feel refreshing. She tried to humour it away but is it really possible to forget everything and carry it on?

A few days later she gets a call on her phone. He called. She could feel her breathe , listen the lub-dub sound of her heartbeat ,and just one thought ‘ Is he sorry? Does he wants to make things like before?’ But it did not turn out as she hoped. She took the call and as she heard his voice she could not control herself.She wanted to say how much she still loved him. But the voice on the other side of the phone asked her to meet at the court room for the final proceedings to be completed.

It was all over!

She kept the phone. She was dumbfound , her mind blank. She was hopeless about her coming years.Only the last one year flashed across her mind like the speed of light. Darkness again grasped her mind.

A month later they finally met in the courtroom.

Both sat beside each other. An eloquent silence encompassed them. Still there was time to make things fine but who would start? She wore his favourite dress to make him remind of those days but it seemed all went unnoticed. She looked at him, missed each and every thing of his. Seeing his messed up hair , she remembered those days when she used to settle his hair before he left the house. He broke the silence and interrupted her imagination by trying to speak. He asked her about how she was doing all the while which continued with their past days.

After some time, they were called for the final paperwork and within a time span of two signatures everything ended. He kissed her on her forehead for the last time and parted ways. She thought if she had some magical powers she would capture his last physical touch for the rest of her life.

But she had to move on.

It is so uncertain how life brings us in a situation that we dare to even think of. A situation where we would never want to be. But this is life.

After almost two years of separation and a photo of their being her sole companion she gradually moved on.

Life does not stop for anyone. It goes on and on until your ultimate end.

Beauty of being a donna!

Femininity- a word which is somewhat difficult to understand. God has made each of us( male or female) showing there should be distinct difference between the two. As a woman, it is our responsibility to let our femininity shine. But what does that mean ? Do I always need to keep my nails painted ? Or is it an offence to kick back and play football ? Or am I a failure if a 3-course dinner is not on the table at the right time?

The answer to these questions is a ‘NO’ . Much of our perception of what it means to be a ‘woman’ is shaped by our views of a woman’s role in history . Do I relate with domestic housewife , corporate executive or the vivacious actress?? SHE is trustworthy , hard-working ,cares for her family , helps those in need and speaks in wisdom.

A woman draws out various characterestics starting from physical , mental , emotional , biological . She is capable of doing anything and everything. It s her inner strength that helps her fight against all odds.  It is a God’s gift and all of us must appreciate it. The origin of a child , daughter, wife, mother, grandmother is the journey of an average woman.

It is said that the woman was made of rib out of the side of Adam , not made out of his head to top him neither put of his feet to be trampled on by him but out of his side to be equal with him , under his arm to be protected and near his heart to be loved by him .

As a young woman taking her first step into woman hood , I often find myself struggling in a world  made up of conflicting messages about what women is or how one should be. It is the media or the people around that continue to reinforce the misguided views about women especially when it comes to their place in society.

But whatsoever , being a woman is something to be proud of . She is sensitive , assertive , beautiful and unique. She is God’s creation and should never be kept apart or excluded from anything that she wants to do.

Creative blogger award!

Hi guys…

I have been nominated for the CREATIVE BLOGGERS AWARD by https://wanderingviolet.wordpress.com.

Thanks for the nomination wandering violet!

Here I have to give five random facts about me and then nominate bloggers to do the same.

1. To start with , I love taking selfies at any random moments!

2. I prefer to be the way I am and generally do not change for people. I like to be independent, well guided by my own intellect.

3.I am someone who strongly believes in love . True Love can make things/people better or may be the best to some extent.

4.I give too many chances to people to rectify their mistakes more than they deserve but once I am done , I AM DONE!

5. Immense love for fashion , try to keep myself at par with the changing trends as well as create my own fashion.

These are some of the facts which I thought could be shared with everyone. 🙂

So now, I have to nominate a few bloggers for the ‘Creative Bloggers Award.’

They are:

https://chiboomz.wordpress.com/

https://erikakind.wordpress.com/

https://theonlysup.wordpress.com/

https://welcometowinterhaven.wordpress.com/

https://wandersparkle.wordpress.com/

https://passionunbridled.wordpress.com/

https://groupexpo.wordpress.com/

https://projectameliajane.wordpress.com/

https://nedaruscic.wordpress.com/

https://verseherder.wordpress.com/

NOTE:
You people have to give 5 random facts about yourselves and then nominate others to do the same.There is no mention of limit on number of bloggers.
Also,and this is VERY IMPORTANT, mention the name and the link of the blogger who nominated you.

[edit:All  nominations are absolutely random :).]